me_vs_me

Hi Fuds...

2011-08-14T16:11:00.003+08:00

Hey love,

I know U'd be reading this in a bit. Let me tell u a story k...

There was this one time when I saw on board a bus heading towards our old Kay Siang Campus, I asked myself if this particular boy was attached to this singh-looking girl.

Many a times, I saw that boy again. On the bus. With the same girl.

Then one fine day.. Lo and behold.. That same boy was sitting in the same class as me..!

Haha! Strange as it may sound, I kindda foresee being friends with this boy.

Many, many days passed. True enough.. Friends we became. Haha! One of that with a unique kind of relationship if I may add.

I remembered distinctly this one time where YanaBanana was sitting in between me and this boy and she just snapped.."Wani can u please stop flirting?!"

Hahaha I was so embarassed at that revelation lah! It dawned upon me that eh ya..hahah I was flirting!

And then slowly. slowly I started liking this boy la. I don't know why exactly... Maybe its cos everything felt right with this boy... Then sekali... Aler.. Found out this boy was attached la!

So I went along liking this boy still but I couldn't do anything about it except to get myself attached to this other darnation of a being. Haa!

Then right.. I notice that this boy ah.. He is sending me signals that I can't fathom la.. I mean like yea Im flirting but this boy.. FLIRTS RIGHT BACK!

Alerr.. Got me confused this boy.. Like me but don't like me at the same time..

One day all fine and dandy and then the next day, he gives me the cold shoulder... Like hek?!

Subsequently this boy was my FYP group mate but yet I seem to notice that despite the time that we spent together.. He's ever so eager to just be away altogether.

Haha! I concluded that he was henpecked by the missus.. So did the rest of the gang actually..

Lunches were missed.. Outings were ignored.. Haiz.. Sad..

But somehow or rather.. This boy never did left my mind la.. Always he will creep in silently without rhyme or reason...

Hmm.. I wonder why.. =P

after all that's been said and done.

2010-12-25T14:45:00.004+08:00

Each and every year, I'll be surprised.
This happens. Each and every year.

Time flew by and I ponder on...
the things that I've done, the things that I've not, the things that I've said and the things that were left unspoken.

Each and everytime, I'll ask, was it enough? Did it matter? And what's next?
This on top of the things that I regretted not doing, have done, happened and didn't happen.
Hah!

End of years always do this to me.
And then a new year begins.

New year resolution? Haha! I've stopped making em. Cos apparently, they too will be forgotten and cast aside.

Bengaps doesn't even come close to what U are.

2010-12-06T02:37:00.005+08:00

Last night,
my heart skidded a lil. Truly, I do think that I can never move away far enough from my past.

U deserved that treatment for thinking it would be fine and dandy for U to come along on the pretext that U want to say, 'Hi'?

Kau nak buat lawak of the century pe?
Cos seriously, I don't know whether I should laugh or simply unleash my neverending vulgarities. (which I must say proudly that I've learnt to curb)

After this, I do sincerely hope that anything from the past will lose their way and never cross my path. Ever.

im not evil.

2010-12-05T07:33:00.003+08:00

I am not evil, right?
At least I think I'm not.
Try as I may... Haa~

The past few days.. I can't remember when it exactly started but I've been hearing door creaks. Like those, scary movie door creaking sound effect. It has been recurring. It's coming from upstairs (this has yet to been confirmed) but even so, I am very sure that it's not coming from my house cos..
the doors in my house don't creak
each time the sound comes around, none of the doors in my house are moving or have been moved
And I'm starting to wonder if I'm the only one hearing it. -wani ponders-

It has been proven and confirmed that the creaking sound is coming from upstairs cos my upstairs neighbour decided to fix that thingy2 which prevents the door from slamming while closing.

Harap maklum! (:

i'd like one of this. hee.

2010-11-28T19:39:00.002+08:00

I don't know about u lovely ladies but from time to time I'd like to envision my wedding. Insya Allah, if I ever do get married that is. Hee..

Glee just gave me another idea. Weddings should be fun. Regardless. So yea..

past.. y u no stay there?

2010-11-24T00:30:00.003+08:00

-inserts y-no-guy-
Past..! Y u no stay there?!

My life story always, always manage to do a U-turn when I least expect it. And when it does that, I get all squirmish.
Pray tell, how far must I go so that it won't catch up with me eh?

I've turned 23. 2 more years and I'd be a quarter of a century. I suppose it should be something applause worthy. I am afterall alive and blessed with beautiful people with the exceptions of that particular few, of course.

K, that's all.
Oh wait...
Let's chant, " to err is human, to forgive is divine"..

aku tak suka.

2010-11-15T01:33:00.003+08:00

I don't get the need for us to rush through life like a mad race. Chasing things that is supposedly there to be chased just so we can prove our worth as humans?

For real?

someone's back.

2010-11-10T21:54:00.003+08:00

We didn't really conclude things. Much chanting on my part has got me to forget those days .
Now that you've return, I told myself that all is forgiven since all have been said and done.

Friends. Yes.
Surround yourself with friends, life is more worthwhile that way. Right?

But then I ask, what if you repeat what u did then, now. That would make it strike 3. Hah.
We shall see, ya?

Sedangkan Nabi s.a.w maafkan umatnya.. Apa lagi aku, kan?

(:

4-one-one.

2010-10-24T11:13:00.002+08:00

A lot has happened.
A new cousin. Amelia Shasmeen (10/10/10)
A new niece. Qistina Fairuz (13/10/10)
Welcome to this world, sweethearts.
(:

Ariff went to Cambodia.
2 weeks later.
He's back, yesterday.
(:

I've made a firm conclusion.
I won't make anyone a priority in my life if I am not one in theirs.
Selfish? I'd rather be that than be hurt.
Period.

As of now, it's the assignments/ presentations and write-ups period.
>____<

Dear Allah, please give me the strength to overcome all life's challenges that U put forth to me. And please don't let me stray ever again.
Thank U for always being there. (:
Amin.

say hey.

2010-10-10T16:10:00.003+08:00

One month 6 days, this space of mine have been collecting dust. During my absence here, I've been contemplating whether I should just shut it down altogether. It does seem that this space have been that one place that I pen things down to get it out of my system plus it does contain tons of memories but I'm beginning to thing that maybe, this space of mine here, is weighing me down.

From time to time (sometime even at all the wrong time) I tend to come back here and reminicse but... Haha I do wonder if it does me any good...

So... How now brown cow?

Last 5 days.

2010-09-04T14:33:00.003+08:00

The curtain falls on Ramadan in 5 days. It seems that I've spent most of the time at home being around the family with occasional meet ups with friends for Iftar and such.

It was then brought up to me by a few that I seemed distant.
So it got me pondering and the only justification I have is that... Yea, I've been keeping to myself of late. Spending more time being crazy with my family instead.

Last time, I remembered telling my friends,
"Eh, my family don't know the real 'gila, loud' me."

Now I don't seem to want to hold back anymore. I suppose with age, I've come to realise that families are the ones that you should really, really have no qualms about being your truest self. Cos they matter and for that they shouldn't mind and take you as you are.
Alhamdulillah, I am blessed that the people that matter to me (namely my family and my closest friends) they have managed to take and love me as I am.

With the free time that I've got thus far, a lot of thinking and pondering have been done. I must say, a couple of realisations have been made. Some of which aren't entirely things that I'm proud of but am taking it as learning lessons.

This Ramadan, I guess I've allowed myself to get closer to Allah. Finding myself. And trying to make amends with issues within me.
Insya Allah with Him, life will be more meaningful and easier to go through.

Till here for now...

boulder on my head.

2010-08-20T12:26:00.002+08:00

My oh my, deary me. I woke up with a boulder on my head and it's crappy. Kepala berat, literally.

Today, something got me thinking.
U know, sometimes thoughts cross our mind without us really wanting or planning for it to, right? Or is it just me?
Then after which, it gets u thinking, why did it even cross your mind in the first place?
After that, U think.. alerr... what the...? And in this paragraph alone, there's already so many 'think' and 'thinking'.
Oh God...

This morning kan, while sahur-ing.. I had something interesting to blog about. I even made a mental note to note it down somewhere so I won't forget. Then, I have an inner argument with myself stating that it would be silly of me to be taking down something so minute such as this as though it's ever so important.
All in all, I asked myself, "What's the point?"

And guess what, yours truly, forgets what it was about anyway.

This short memory span of mine, trust me, has been a major worry factor for me. Like really lah, I'm only going 23 this year and gosh.. I can't even remember what's going on?
For example eh, well.. When I'm praying.. let's say Zuhur.. While going on my 3rd rakaat or 4th for that matter, suddenly I'd think about

"Eh, tadi aku baca tahiyat awal ke tak?"
"Eh sekarang rakaat berapa ni?"

Scary much?

Oh and there's been cases where while I'm doing something kan, I'd actually blank out and wonder,
"Eh aku buat apa ni?"

How like that?
All this scares me. A lot. What will happen when I'm all wrinkly and old? ):

fair warning: i'm gonna ramble.

2010-08-18T12:20:00.003+08:00

So I think it's been a while since I rambled along on this virtual space of mine. The reason why, I'm not sure myself. Haa~

I've been chillaxing as much as I can since I've started the hols and I don't foresee doing anything else haha just cos I'm very 'scared' that I won't be able to do as such once work proper starts. School, assignments tho crappy, I'd still choose over going back to school to teach.. Haa! Impressing the teacher seems more welcoming than impressing the P and the parents on top of Subject Head and HOD. Aiyerr~

Semalam, baba voiced out while I was watching, 'Ketuk, Ketuk Ramadan!'

"Ni da banyak 'belajar' (memasak), bila Ani nak masak lagi?"

Haha, yours truly, could only manage a smirk and went, "Cukup time ah ba.."
In all honesty, kemalasan terserlah lah saya ni.. Haaa~

Hmm today marks the 8th day of Ramadan. Why is it that now, I don't really have something to look forward to about Syawal? Gosh...
It scares me to think about history repeating itself like it does every other year.

La la la..~
Today I realised an irony while folding the laundry, of all time, I know right? But yea, I realised it and I smirked (yet again) and then that's it. Hah..
I'm so not making sense.

K dah lah.. That's all for now.

Absence. Mine.Here.

2010-08-13T21:48:00.005+08:00

Come what may, I'll pull through.

This was what I chanted for the five weeks that I was doing my TA. Finally. All is done, I'm still standing here tho a lil shaken.

Imagine what's 10 weeks gonna do to me? Don't even get me started.

As of now I'm gonna enjoy whatever bit of freedom that I have before I have to hit the books again. Alhamdulillah, 3 weeks of break due to school closure since YOG is happening.

Now Ramadan is here. Thus far, all is good. Alhamdulillah (:

6ixes pulled off Ifa's 22nd and Syaz's 23rd. Wee~

I managed to go catch up with my LKKW and SS. Haha!

Mama time and again proved to be the best friend that Im very blessed to have.

All is good, all is good.

3 more days.

2010-08-01T09:09:00.003+08:00

So this is what I heard...
Ive got to plan till Wednesday only since Thurs - Mini Olympic and Friday - NDP Celebrations. Yep.

And as such, the procrastination is on uber high this weekend.

I spent the whole day yesterday doing nothing but eating, watching TV and zoning in and out of lalaland.
Hah! Productive I was not. Not at all.

Woke at 6 today since I had an early night. Woke with an intention to do as much as I can before I head off to Bedok (which I have been skipping for 2 weeks due to the madness) but lo and behold. Hah!
Yep U guessed it. Zilch is done.

Speaking of which. I forgot to reflect. Oh oh.

the final length.

2010-07-28T20:41:00.001+08:00

So it's already week 4.

A lil more. -chants repeatedly-

saturday.

2010-07-24T10:06:00.003+08:00

Im the happiest on Saturday morning. It meant no school and... Wait.. It just means no school. Haa!

Since the start of the 5 week stint of Teaching Assistantship, I've found myself dreading waking up in the morning. First week was easy. The subsequent weeks, however, was something else altogether.
This Monday marks the 4th week.
Tuesday, Cikgu Tajul is going to be observing me. After which, I've got 2 more observations. Aiyer.

I've concluded on my own self that, my blood pressure was on a constant rise since day one. Hah..!

And this is what I had for breakfast this morning.

a new earworm every other time.

2010-07-17T21:53:00.002+08:00

This is another man besides Neyo that I'd pay to go watch if he ever comes to do a show in our lil red dot.

Came across this song as part of my 'recommendation' list on YouTube. Usher's ever so smooth. So uber drool worthy. (:

and no matter what the day is.

2010-07-15T20:08:00.003+08:00

See what I'm tryna say is,
I don't know why I signed on that dotted line.

Haha.

As much as I do want it, I don't want it at the same time. This is the same sentiment that I had then. My oh my, so unhealthy for my mental state of mind, I tell you.

But you can so bet on it that, I'd be singing a different tune again. Hah~

I'm indecisive that way, you see.

Boyzone - Gave It All Away (Official Video)

2010-07-10T06:31:00.002+08:00

Woke up in the morning ~~feeling like P.Diddy~~ with every intention to write a full fledged Malay reflection with regards to my 1 week worth of observation. Hah! But in all honesty, this is one of the many things, that I am not particularly proud about is that my thoughts and speech mostly take their form in English. Thus the reason why I don't believe my career choice sometimes. Hah!

But I digress.

What did I end up doing?

Went on YouTube and got started on listening to their songs. I liked them the last time (namely cos Ronan was a hottie and Stephen was a cutie) but it's only today that I actually heard them. Haha~
Yours truly, got a lil hooked.

first week down.

2010-07-09T06:55:00.002+08:00

Current earworm

Wow, Alhamdulillah!
It's Friday and that alone is a cause of celebration! Hahah!

First week of TA is done and I've got nothing to complain about thus far. When people come around comparing timetable, they kindda highlighted that mine is the 'best'. (Another blessing to count here.)
I hope I didn't speak to soon about this matter.

Ive been set to teach P3 and P4. Generally, there's some culture difference I have to adapt to. Insya Allah, all will be good. (:
Children wise, haha, they have their different quirks which is to be expected.

Being in my very own alma mater makes some things rather surreal. True enough. Seeing my ex-teachers, I can't help but feel, woah! They are standing right infront of me and despite it all, I still feel a lil 'intimidated' by them.Haha!

What came over me eh? Why did I even wish that I grow up fast back then? Haha! Being a student comes with plenty of awesomeness. Hah! (:

Ok then till the next entry.

when mr sandman didn't visit again.

2010-07-03T04:52:00.003+08:00

This time around, sleep didn't invade me. Seeing that I really have got no mood to get into the 'work' state of mind, I spend the rest of the night till like 430am just now watching GLEE! All of Season 1. Of course I was already into ep 14/22 that is. Haha!

Im pretty much convinced that I'll be getting the DVD when it comes out. Below will be a blast from the past, like almost every other song that has been included in the movie. (:

that fairytale.

2010-07-02T07:34:00.001+08:00

I don't think I'll ever tire myself of this movie.

so not looking forward to this.

2010-07-01T20:28:00.002+08:00

In all honesty, I am actually a ~~lil~~ frightened about the impending ~~doom~~ 5-weeks stint of Teaching Assistantship. Going back to school as the teacher and not a student. Oh my. Don't even get me started on what's going on in my head.

6th July.

Did someone take a portion of that courage that I once had. That portion that I had gained with the guidance that I got from my last school and mentor. Where did it go? Would it make a difference if I had actually return to the previous school?
Orh man, this sucks.
Really, it does.

What if I fumble and tumble?
Haa~ That would definitely be a sight!

i deserve to smile.

2010-06-24T06:50:00.001+08:00

I am publicly proclaiming that I am a GLEEK!
Totally my current earworm. (God knows for how long but yea. It shall stay for now.) (:

has this happened to you?

2010-06-22T17:24:00.002+08:00

So I'm hoping I'm not the only who gets this but has this ever happened to you where you are having a conversation with a friend and no matter what was it that you were 'heatedly' discussing gets pushed aside and the topic of the other party being hungry becomes the main topic?

Well try that and multiply it by a hundred or even hundreds if you may.

Cos I'm starting to think that maybe I have a 'food' face or maybe I radiate a vibe that stimulates hunger by a hundred mile radius.

What do you think?

Despite this, I can't help but be amused and go, "here we go again..." in my head each and every time.

of late.

2010-06-19T11:00:00.002+08:00

My head has been light of late. Been waking up as though I'm constantly having motion sickness and trust me when I say it's not doing me any good of sorts.

God, have mercy on me.

Im putting this song on repeat currently. Hah! Despite it all, I kindda have a liking for Miley Cyrus. =P

thirteen days.

2010-06-17T16:35:00.002+08:00

Pardon my absence on this virtual space of mine. No, I wasn't on hiatus of any sorts... Merely ~~taking a breather~~ being lazy. Luna (aka my handy dandy iPhone) have been serving rather well and thus I've neglected both Lola and Anabelle.

Any oh hoo, many things have happened since I last logged on.

Walls have been repainted. Decals have been pasted. My room went thru a lil makeover. Insya Allah if I have more to spare in coming time, I'd invest a lil more to achieve that desired effect that I want my room to have. (:

My ass have grown a few sizes bigger. Haha! Well orang-orang kata, mereka yang 'semangat' adalah mereka yang amat gembira.. Haha! I don't know how much truth there is in there but yea Alhamdulillah. Things have been good and I don't really have much to complain about.

More books have been read, movies have watched and along the way tears have been shed not forgetting me heart raced a couple of times thru it all. Haha!! Sheesh, dramatic much?

Oh! And this is important! Haha! I've actually managed to clear some cupboard spaces. Discarding things that I know I won't even remember having and trust me when I say that doing all the clearing is rather satisfying.

All in all, I've been happy. Alhamdulillah. (:

Date to note: *16/06/2010. Haha! (*Nunu, told you I'd note it down in my diary..Hee!)

Till the next time eh? See you lovelies around!

i don't get it.

2010-06-04T18:51:00.002+08:00

Tell me again, how does all of this work?
I'm confused..

I don't get it. At all.
Really.

i will go.

2010-05-21T12:54:00.003+08:00

Not a national secret that I simply adore Neyo. If this man comes down to entertain Singapore, I so will go (:

One of his tunes that I can simply drift to.

playing cupid.

2010-05-15T11:26:00.015+08:00

I grew up watching the beautiful people on TV and thinking,
"Hey that dude looks good together with this chick."

Subsequently when I entered school life, I was always the 'go-to' girl if one of the boys want to get together with my girlfriends cos U see, I was 'one of the guys'. Have and always will been that way. I 'm guessing its cos I wasn't one of the ones who's blessed with svelte body, sweet face and dainty gestures. I was the rough and tumble sort.

The one who would slide in the mud playing soccer. Race up the slopes on the bicycle and there was once that I even ended up flying into the skies and landing; gashing my knees and elbows. Oh and have I ever told U, I even had a stick fight with a bully who messed with my cousin. LOL!

-Those were the days-
I digress, haha, as usual.

The actual purpose of this post was to talk about who I think looks good together.

-Channing Tatum & Jenna Dewan-

-Halle Berry and Gabriel Aubry-

-Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves-

-Katie Holmes and Joshua Jackson-

-Kajol and Shahrukh Khan-

-Preity Zinta and Saif Ali Khan-

-Rachel Mcadams and Ryan Gosling-

-Nicole Richie and Joel Madden-

-Usher and Alicia Keys-

-Justin Timberlake and Britney Spears-

Hmm.. Yea.. At this point of time I kindda can't think of anymore beautiful people that looks good together. But do U guys agree with the list thus far? -Hee-

t a l k.

2010-05-14T13:48:00.002+08:00

We talk alot. At least, I know I do.

And during the talks that we had.
I come closer to realise that

we share the same worries,
the same concerns

and that

we are not really alone afterall.

So the next time U catch urself blabbering nonstop to your best friends, your partners or whoever it is,
always remember

words will allow the closing of gaps. Most of the time. Yea.

sniffles. snooggles.. gum beeeboopszz.

2010-05-13T11:13:00.003+08:00

*Sniffle sniffle*

The bug is flying around and guess who had to catch it? Yours truly.
Sheesh kebab tol!
But that aside, I noticed a couple of things these past few days.
If you take time out to just notice things, U get to witness a couple of cuteness.

Hmm..
*sniffle, cough, sniffle*

This coughing and sniffling is irrinoying. Jeebers boobers lah!

I love my life now. -smiles-
(That is minus all the sniffling and coughing)

my escapes.

2010-05-05T16:40:00.003+08:00

In between of 'domesticating' myself, I am thankful for being able to do the things that I wanted to without worrying about school work; I'd consider this a luxury. (:

First up on my list was to have my own movie marathon. Haha! It seems I've got alot of movies in my collection that I haven't gotten around to watching. Not to mention the ones that I recently purchased. New and old shows. Awesome lah!

Ooo.. Plus I've also got myself a man's work for company too.. He got me moved to tears which is considerably easy since I'm sucha crybaby. =P

These two got me hooked from page 1.. But the water works came in pretty much during 'The Choice'. Yeaps. Haiyo. What am I to do with myself, I have no idea.

The parents are coming home tomorrow night. Hee.. I can't be happier. Truly.

on the contrary.

2010-05-02T22:58:00.003+08:00

When the cats go away, the mice come out to play?
Haha!

Contrary to many who believed that I, Wani, would wreck havoc, I didn't. Stood grounded and level headed based on two accounts. One, I've got my lil bro to think about. Two, parents' trust too valuable to break. ((:
-Pats myself on the back-

The parents have flown off since the 29th. And guess what?
I feel so domesticated already.
Haha!

Truth be told, I am a spoilt brat and woah am I in awe. Like really.
House work ain't no walk in the park man. To think mama did it all without breaking a sweat. Ok I suppose that's too much an exaggeration but she really made it all looked too easy peasy.

-Salutes to all mummies who are awesome in their own ways-

I miss my parents. Boohoo..

Regardless of it all, I really hope that they are having a blast in Aussie cos they sure deserve it.. (:

u waited. (:

2010-04-27T23:07:00.002+08:00

I bet this is like so 'dah basi' but I've only gotten around to watching Tha Lake House today, U know that movie starring Sandra Bullock(my all time fave) and Keanu Reeves.

The message was simple yet ever so beautiful.
Love knows no boundary. Not even time.

So I guess this kindda helped tame the cynical-skeptic or the skeptical-cynic in me. Either one.

He was patient. He waited and finally they reunited. -Cues 'Awwww...'-

Well what can I say. Im a true blue sucker for romantic movie with a happy ending.

apple pablo.

2010-04-22T12:13:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's Linguistik paper wasn't really all that awesome for me but I guess the 'up'side of it is that I didn't walk out of the hall feeling ever so crappy about it as I was last year.

Im not all confident that I'll ace through but I'm just going to hope for the best.

Next up is... Sastera. Many have said that in this paper, it's how well U can spin ur words so that it can be churned out to become an intricate web of beautiful perspectives. Hah!
In other words, it's how well U can bull..
In English, I'd oh so dearly say, bring it on.. but we talking about me having to bull in my bahasa ibunda lah eh. Ternganga lah aku nampaknya..

This is my current earworm..

swoon factor.

2010-04-17T10:12:00.003+08:00

The past few weekends, namely Saturday, I've been looking forward to something. Hee.. As usual, yeah it involves a guy. Hah!

I've, oh so religiously, set camp infront of the telly just so I can have my 2hrs dosage of him and the adorable Ella. (:

He plays, Shiang Yu Ping, an expert divorce and inheritance lawyer, is seen by others as cold, selfish, and ruthless.
She plays, Yang Gou, his nanny turned love interest.

Haha well what can I say. Im a sucker for guys with tough exterior, dimpled smile but an all around big lovable teddy bear on the inside (: WEE!

Hmm after the exams, I've got a feeling that I'd be on a hunt looking for DVDs and such. So..~ Yeaps!

Oh, did I mention that I've got studying to do. HaaHa!

empty.

2010-04-13T06:45:00.005+08:00

That spot behind my bed is now empty. No more s m i l e baby that I'd smile back at each time I enter the room. Hmm. Sometimes Im a skeptic as to whether these kindda things should be entertained or simply brushed aside.

I'd reckon that if I didn't know any better, I'd be one of those who would go, "Pfft, say what? Spirits? Ghost? Hah!"
I seriously think I would be one of those. But like I said, it's only if I didn't know any better.

So moving on...

~~The minimum requirement for the assignment is 5 pages. And Im totally already blank at 4. So how now brown cow?~~ Yeays! Alhamdulillah, I am done. Tho Im not the least bit sure if I am making sense or not.
Gosh!

~~Dangs. Hungry la plak.~~ I had popcorn chicken for breakfast so now I'm a happy goober. (:*

i g n o r e.

2010-04-11T17:46:00.002+08:00

I can be quite good at ignoring things that I can't see.
Most of the time I get by like that..
But now Im getting chills down my spine cos Baba had to remind me before he left for work. I'm home a l o n e now.

Hmm.

On a lighter note,
one of my juniors got engaged today. (:*

something to ponder on.

2010-04-09T10:13:00.002+08:00

I came across this yesterday while I was idling my time away...

"God will not give U what U want if it's not something that U really need"

Hmm..

I mean for those who's craving for something more, I am pretty sure that they will have a 1001 rebuttal to the abovementioned statement but then again, U can't help but deny it does make sense kan?

By 'default' we humans usually look for something a lil more than what we are ~~given~~ blessed with. I mean even for those who may have pledged to be eternally grateful for the blessings, they tend to ask for a lil something else along the way... Hmm...

Does this call for,
"How now brown cow? --- I don't know kerbau"
pondering session?

-Hee-
Haha!
Im not trying to be 'deep' cos I think this may be another attempt on my part to justify my lack of work done.

4days till literature deadline. Im soo screwed! =P

love story.

2010-04-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

Speechless much? Fast game pe dorang joget? Haa!

clash of the titans.

2010-04-02T21:51:00.003+08:00

Go watch if U fancy men with muscles in skirts cos they won't be short in supply throughout the movie. Hmm I believe that it would have been better in 3D but haiya, we came late and the tix were selling like Prada on discount.

Shucks, April just started but I don't seem to be taking any fancy of this month. I suppose it has to do with the impending 'doom' of the exams. Sheesh.

Ohyeas.. 1st of April didn't really take on much effect like it did in previous years. So nobody was punkd nor was any punkd-ing done.

I loved these 2 together.. Random note of the day.. Yea yeaa. The word 'random' is overrated. Bleahs.

still hook to this. omg.

2010-03-28T03:11:00.001+08:00

this is true.

2010-03-27T20:14:00.002+08:00

Today is undeniably

the laziest

Saturday

that

ever

went through.....

the calling came.

2010-03-26T08:50:00.005+08:00

My debate was settled after many hours of 'sungguh-tak-masuk-akal' deliberations. Haha! I know, I know.. I said that 'Vivaz' was the answer to my my debate but geez, I've been a Sony E user for many, many times.. And each time I got bored quickly cos SonyE is undeniably most 'creative' aesthetically but 'dalam' of the phone is merely a lil upgrade from the model before...U noe, it's different but the same.

Oh dang, after having a mental convo with myself, I change my handphone almost every other year.. -Kau! Fickle much?- Each time I got a new phone, I remember telling it that I'd take care of it and I'll use it for a long time =p That obviously didn't happen.

Urgs..!

Sheesh, what can I say, guilty as charged. I love me gadgets like I love me clothes.

Meet my new baby, ~~Candie~~ Luna... (she didn't really fancy Candie =p)

I'm loving it .... -para pa pa pa-

this song makes me happy, all. the. time. (:

2010-03-21T23:14:00.004+08:00

turn ur lights down low.

2010-03-20T20:58:00.001+08:00

Negativity be gone, Vivaz come to momma!

2010-03-19T08:12:00.006+08:00

I am certain.
A 120% sure that U were a mistake.
I was the fool. This was a painful lessson learnt but damn it..

These flashbacks.
They put to shame even the crappiest of craps.

A wise man once said, "Never regret something that ever made U smile".
Screw that. Really.
If I knew, I'd much rather U didn't make me smile.

*Note to self:
Dear me,
now that U've got this out of your head... Now shoo! Be gone negativity! Be happy darling! (:

Love,
me.

On a happier note...

Dear Singapore... ~~I'm in love~~ I is sooo am liking this!

I suppose this have answered my debate on whether I should be adding an Iphone or an Itouch to my gadgets darlin collection.. Oh Sony E Vivaz, come to momma!
Hmm this first then an Itouch on a later date perhaps?

Haha and here I speak those words like I ever so freely can pluck moolahs of trees. Sheesh!

and the list goes on and on.

2010-03-18T23:24:00.003+08:00

As of now, Ive got more pressing issues to deal with but I need to list em down just so I won't forget that I wanna watch em..
They appear in random order so here goes:

The Lovely Bones
Twilight Saga: Eclipse
Iron Man 2
Remember Me
Clash of the Titans
Cop Out

Haha..! Yeap yeap yeap!

like really?

2010-03-16T23:19:00.001+08:00

When the world says, "Give up."

Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."~Author Unknown

Not suitable for the faint hearted.

2010-03-14T00:44:00.003+08:00

She's Lady Gaga, I don't suppose u can expect anything less than wild by her. But Im so lovin the song. (:

screamsshouts ahhh~~! can't wait! -beams widely-

2010-03-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

this girl, she got me going green with envy.

2010-03-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

Hannah Dakota Fanning, born on 23rd Feb 1994.

I'm just a normal kid, really. I just love to act.

tumbling..tumble..tumbled...

2010-03-09T23:24:00.001+08:00

Hey happy goobers..

Ive got me a tumblr now juz simply cos I adore many pics that those peeps have got sitting pretty on their site so I thought, why not?

Feel free to drop by yea?

http://smileatpretty-ness.tumblr.com/

melt my heart.

2010-03-06T18:31:00.001+08:00

feel g o o d time (:

2010-03-06T12:51:00.001+08:00

This song got me bopping my head on this sunny Saturday afternoon. (:

mummy, it's over!

2010-03-06T09:37:00.003+08:00

This week was very much something that I looked forward to.. Afterall, who doesn't fancy a break from school, right? But my oh my...

IT'S SATURDAY already!!

As I sit here and recap. Nothing much was done really. Sheesh!

Monday: Nvrending car-ride and tution over on the East side
Tuesday: Ain's 22nd Zootastic Bday Bash
Wed: Play date with Lil Raiyan and JB short refuelling trip with Mama
Thurs: Sch Visit and Pukalan thrashing with Ain
Fri: Supposed girls' day out with Mama and Tot but got cancelled and I think I was being crappy ytd.. Bummed the day away instead.

And here's Saturday already.
If Saturday had a face, I'd imagined it beaming with a whole lot of mockery in my face. -Bleahs!- For once, weekends are so irritating! =p Hah!

live love laugh.

2010-03-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

blast from the past.

2010-03-01T11:55:00.003+08:00

This morning got me playing a lot of ol'skool songs on YouTube. Names like Brandy, TLC and all those beats that U know U can't help moving to was keyed into the search bar.. Haha! Pity mama love for having to endure my futile attempts in trying to 'imitate' em singers.

Enjoy one of many favorites..

to SSG John Tyree, letter no. 555.

2010-02-26T21:11:00.004+08:00

Dear John,

U made me cry today...
It's was so sad watching U breakdown like that.. I wanted so badly to be there to put my arms around U and tell U that everything's gonna be alright and that U'd be fine...

Dear John,

U made me swoon like a lil school girl today when U walked my Savannah's way. With your hands in ur pockets, all U had to do was walk.. and le sigh... Dayum! U're so hot! I can still see U in my head now...And the effect hasn't worn off just yet.

Dear John,

U made me wish for something today. Today, of all the days- more than anything else, I wished that I had a boyfriend . Someone who's like U, who would love me as much as U loved Savannah..

Dear John,

eventhough the movie wasn't as true to the book that I'd like it to be, I managed to come out of the cinema smiling cos U got ur happy ending.

Dear John..

I wonder now, will I ever get my fairytale happy ending like U?

P.S:
U and Savannah got me jealous looking at this pic cos both of U looked so happy together. I want to be that happy too...

just.

2010-02-23T13:08:00.003+08:00

Just believe that for every fall that U have,

U'd rise.

Just believe that for every tear that U shed,

U'd soon smile again.

Just believe that everything happens for a reason.

Just believe things will work out in the end..

Bottomline..

Just never stop believing

cos the world is a good place

and we deserve to be happy. (:

i don't really care.

2010-02-22T10:49:00.002+08:00

It's no secret that he's totally my current boy-crush.
Like uber drool-worthy la kan this boy...

Dayum..
He's hot.
I ♥ Taylor Lautner!

And by saying that,
I've already made myself sound like a freaking pedo.

But then again, Demi & Ashton made it work, why can't I?

Bleahs. Fat chance. Haa.

makin my fingers move.

2010-02-21T11:41:00.002+08:00

I am only tryin to make myself feel better cos.

I've been up since 7, showered, ate and all 'supposedly' ready to hit my lappy in an attempt to complete DLK.

Nearly 5 hours later.

-Zilch-

Oh boy.. Wth is goin on with me eh?

And dayum...

Yesterday's meet up with the dingdongs felt good.. It felt real good.

self-explainatory.

2010-02-18T22:33:00.001+08:00

cheap smirks.

2010-02-16T21:10:00.002+08:00

Is it just me or does hearing the name 'Ken Watanabe' make everyone smirk?

Cos I sure as hell can't help myself. And this happen each and everytime...

It's like U're not allowed to but yet u've just cursed and yet nobody's around to catch U.

Repeat 3x..

Ken Wa-Ta-Naaa-Be

Wa-Taaa-Na-Be

Waaa-Taaa-Naaa-Be.

Hahaa! Don't u feel 'sinful' already? =p

If.. Only IF..

2010-02-16T07:39:00.003+08:00

If there was such thing as a another life... Reincarnation of some sort..

I'd like to be Wani again. But this time...

I want to be able to play the piano like Alicia Keys.

Sing like Beyonce.

Drive like Jason Statham's character in 'The Transporter'.

Cook and bake like Rachel Ray.

Joke like Ellen Degeneres.

Do business like Bill Gates.

Be married to a rare find of a hubby.

And

Raise a family like my momma.

If there was such thing as a another life... Reincarnation of some sort..

Only IF.

But these are only pictures that I paint in my head.

A fairytale that only exists in storybooks.

This much I know.

for each time.

2010-02-14T23:15:00.003+08:00

As I sit up in my bed at night, almost every other night, my mind would drift to one question.

Why me?

And then I, myself, would ask me, why not?

Im not making sense but who cares.

the good people.

2010-02-07T14:18:00.005+08:00

Been watching the 'blind side' pretty much on repeat mode in my head for the past few days and I can't help but think about,

"Am I a good person?"

Without a doubt, I believe that I am surrounded by good, beautiful people.

Each time I do sieve thru the qualities that I envy of others hoping that I might at least have a fraction of the goodness that they have but

somehow...

I'd much rather believe that

I'm just a mediocre existence
who is

blessed by the existence of the

good, beautiful people in her life.

And for that alone, I thank God. (:

i want this song. please. (:

2010-02-02T23:57:00.001+08:00

the simple laughs.

2010-01-31T12:04:00.003+08:00

Woke up to a 3pages long text on my mobile of him recounting back about his all-nighter rendevous with his buddies and somewhere along the line, there was 'minyak hentam ketiak'.

As crude as that may sound but let's just not take that into mind.

It took me like 3hrs later to go..

OMGzzz! -Nunu style-
HAHAHAHA!

A good start to the day, I am all cracked up now.

(*^_____^*)

Colorful expressions are so the way to go!

how apt.

2010-01-27T22:04:00.003+08:00

"Waiting for the fish to bite or

waiting for wind to fly a kite.

Or waiting around for Friday night or

waiting perhaps for their Uncle Jake or

a pot to boil or

a better break or

a string of pearls or

a pair of pants or

a wig with curls or

another chance.

Everyone is just waiting."

-Dr. Seuss

smile a lil wider.

2010-01-25T01:20:00.004+08:00

Just seeing this pic, gives me a happy feeling.

Ouh..

Im smiling a lil wider too. (:

Silly goose.

tuneless tango.

2010-01-22T12:31:00.006+08:00

This shuffling back and forth;

to a tuneless melody

Ain't doin nothing that makes sense at all.

Truth be told, even till now..

I don't know what I want with U.

Haa!

Isn't it a helluva good weather for sleeping in today. If not for the errands that I had to run, I'd still be snuggling up in bed dreaming my happy dreams. (:*

Ouh. And class's at 430.

So ain't it all dandy.. Wee.

staring into space.

2010-01-19T20:36:00.003+08:00

I am a dreamer/stoner/stoinker (and apa-apa yang sewaktu dengannya) when Im separated from the pack.

Though Im supposedly in the conscious-half of the 6ixes. .. Haha!

Imagine this.

I was at the front of the line in the bus Q, I mean U'd think anybody would notice a long-bendy bus right infront of U but, yours truly, she sat there staring into space and somehow thinking,

"Eh... why is 167 at a 180 line?"

Mepek or wad?

And a stranger had to go all, woi.. bus woi.. Ha!

I am a dreamer/stoner/stoinker (and apa-apa yang sewaktu dengannya) when Im separated from the pack.

Yes, I am.

the case of the pink tutu and sneakers.

2010-01-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

We'll scream at the top of our lungs,

And we'll feel so alive..

Cos

We'd just throw it away,

Forget yesterday

We'll make the great escape.

We won't hear a word they say.

They don't matter anyway.

kylie's so cute!

2010-01-15T05:57:00.001+08:00

school's in.

2010-01-14T20:45:00.004+08:00

Routine's back in and

without fail

as though my body is simply set on going against me

I'd usually wake

5 precious minutes earlier

before the alarm was due to ring.

Bring me back those happy days where

could simply wake

and

decide that,

"Hey I wanna ride my bike today!"

Wind, sun and all.

free smelly.

2010-01-08T23:45:00.004+08:00

(Picture courtesy of Nunu)

You know how I whine from time to time wanting a job that pays adequately but yet require minimal amount of work?

Well I finally had a feel of how it'd be like during the duration of this holiday. Truly.

Was totally relaxed the entire time and I managed to really just have fun without any qualms nor worries. Awesomeness.

Urgs..! So not looking forward to the end of this hols.

When I say I miss school.. It really just only mean that I miss my girlfriends/friends.

Sherlock Holmes was really just Mentalist set in the olden days. I like!

Robert Downey Jr, was cool.

Wayang w/o sweater equates to mini north pole.

SGarden results in being 'shunned' away due to the free not so aromatic fragrance that stays in ur hair and clothes despite 2 rounds of washing. =p

Good company, priceless ♥

strawberries.

2010-01-07T17:07:00.002+08:00

Everybody wants to be happy;

but nobody wants pain...

but u can't make a rainbow;

without a lil rain...

current earworm.

2010-01-06T11:44:00.002+08:00

indulge in moderation.

2010-01-06T11:20:00.002+08:00

For everytime that U thought U've wasted..

Well ask urself, did U enjoy wasting em?

Cos if U did then...

Never regret em for it was during that time that

U actually;

smiled.

Therefore, those times that U enjoyed wasting is really not wasted time. <3

two oh one oh.

2010-01-02T13:15:00.004+08:00

When I was a kid, all I wanted to was to
get older.
But now that Im older...
I just want to go back to being that kid who is
oblivious to reality and believes in the fact that
mummy and daddy
can make anything happen.
With 2009,
a lot happened.
I learnt many things. I lived more. I smiled. I cried. But most
importantly,
I have managed to emerge thru it all.

Now 2010,
I'd like to be able to achieve something that I'd be truly proud
off, be happy about and cherish for many, many years to come.
Here's to hope, happiness and love. Cheers!

i like.

2009-12-30T21:06:00.002+08:00

I'm happy.

Or at least I try to make the best of things happen

with every single blessings that I am bestowed with.

That counts for much, doesn't it?

ling-a-ling-a-ling

2009-12-29T00:10:00.003+08:00

The BigBro of the '4musketeers' got hitched already. Much Congratz!

Smiles and best wishes all around.
Urgs.. N I was miserable by the fact that he ain't gonna be at my disposal when I go over mak's place.. In addition to the constant bugging from the relatives about when's my turn. Bleahs!

Considering that Im next in line but then again, how do u plan for anything when ur future ain't really printed out in black n white for ur easy perusal eh?
Sheesh-ke-boom-bah laah.. =p

Selamat Pengantin Baru Fairuz Andy and Marini Bohari!

woo-hoo!

2009-12-26T02:58:00.002+08:00

Needless to say KL was uber awesome. Period.

Another thing to put across here for now;
driving in convoy equates to a new exhiliration for me especially so when I'm the one behind the wheels of a new Jazz =D

Woah!
ME LIKEY A HELLUVA LOT!

im leaving on a jet.. nope.. coach.

2009-12-20T13:36:00.002+08:00

Was at Science Center- Body Worlds yesterday and trust me, I was in awe at the revelations. It was all worth the $21 spent!

Spent a good 4 hours, mind U, just touring the exhibitions and more. (:

Check it out when U guys have the time, aites?

Well finally the long awaited virgin trip for most of us 6ixes that involves something 'foreign' without the companionship of our families..IT'S HERE!

We shall depart on creating fun times, good laughs and wonderful memories, Insya Allah!

fan-real-sy

2009-12-18T11:59:00.003+08:00

Monday come soon.

So that I'll have my sanity intact and let myself be insane again. (:

Long live my sane insanity!

current ear worm.

2009-12-14T12:27:00.001+08:00

this tickled me silly.

2009-12-13T12:53:00.000+08:00

(:

2009-12-12T10:08:00.001+08:00

“ Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another:

“What! You too?

I thought I was the only one." C.S. Lewis

yeps..

2009-12-07T23:43:00.005+08:00

Going to the movies still makes me excited each and everytime. >.<

The Blind Side
Avatar
The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus
Couples Retreat

And the list goes on.

Today had a date with the lil bro and lil cuzz, New Moon (belated bday prezzie=wee!), to be exact (yea yea roll your eyes already) but I can't help it. Im a TwiHard or so we've been coined.

I must say that the movie disappoints me a lil cos I feel that the story wasn't quite rightly represented but lil bro was all sweet about making the day all about me. Was all psych since morning, all the way to the theater, throughout and after.. Haha to think he actually indulged in my whims (it's not often that he does, u see) ♥ him so. Hehe..

Ouh and for the record. Im on Team Jacob/ Werewolves (aka the hotter clan!)Yeays!

Any oh hooo....

Gosh, I was all set on maxing out my December Hols but trust me, I didn't think I'd be fully booking up the dates like crazy. Guess it's to make up for lost times.

~~10/12: Date with Woman ♥~~

~~11/12: Date with Juzzy Juz ♥~~

12/12: Yuna's Concert

15/12: Date with GRPS Diva Darlins♥

17/12: Pre-KL MeetUp with 6ixes♥

19/12: Trip to the Science Center

21-23/12: KL with 6ixes ♥

26/12: Cousin's Big Day

29/12: Date with the Contractors

30/12: BBQ with the 10 army nation.

Anymore engagements, I'd just go truly go bonkerz... So please people, don't give me anymore options. K? Hi chance I'd just bail on u. Sorry Dorry Strawberry :S

not a care.

2009-12-04T11:52:00.003+08:00

I want to be that girl;

with rainbow in her hair.

Who laughs to her heart's content;

like she just don't care.

red and pink.

2009-12-03T19:40:00.001+08:00

A heart is not judged by how much you love;
but by how much you are loved by others.

u hear that?

2009-12-02T12:30:00.002+08:00

It takes two hands to clap.

It takes two to tango.

It takes two.

How far do U wanna go?

oh. oh.

2009-11-25T20:43:00.001+08:00

Cada vez que mi zumbido del teléfono,
espero ver su nombre.
Damn, Im en problemas.

permanent ear worm.

2009-11-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

Ear worm;

refers to any song that is so catchy, and at the same time extremely annoying, that it feels like a worm has crawled into your ear and eaten the intelligent parts of your brain so that you hum the song all day long, no matter how much you hate it.

http://www.urbandictionary.com

reminiscing.

2009-11-15T07:12:00.002+08:00

I reminisce at all the wrong time that I know. Something that I can't help nor am able to prevent from happening tho.

Oh well...

December has got me all psyched! Well, it's been a while since I was this psyched about something so Im really hoping all of it pull thru just as planned or even better, Insya Allah.

Daddy's bday today. Hee.. Mumsie, lil bro and yours truly got it together this year. Alhamdulillah.. Payday couldn't have come at a more apt timing. (:

Each day, I learn something new from my girls.

Every day is a new day. Tho not all day is all good but it's just matter of how you look at it. (:
Count every single blessings that U have cos...

not everybody has it this good. <3

my friends. i love.

2009-11-14T04:07:00.000+08:00

and the hearts all over.

2009-11-07T21:35:00.000+08:00